Once learning about relationship dissolution, I began to think
about how my second last relationship ended and what factors were part of that
decision. With my ex-boyfriend Jared, I found that many things played
into our break up because we were dating for three years which means a lot of
memories and history together. There were multiple relational changes
that I now noticed which helped contribute to our break up. Relational
changes are relationship dynamics that may impact a relationship over
time. One of the relational changes is time spent together is lost. With Jared, we spent a lot of time together
in high school since we went to the same high school. Once I began
college, I spent most of my time there and even played a few intramural sports
which took up a lot of my time. He began working second shift so he went
to work from 3 to 11 at night. I was typically at class at around 9 till
3 so our schedules were completely opposite which didn’t allow for much time to
be spent together which really put a strain on our relationship. We
typically hung out once or twice a week within my free time of the two hours
in-between my class schedule and his work schedule. The next relational change that occurred was
infidelity. Jared decided to cheat on me a few times that I knew of but I
kind of just blew them off because we were in high school and at that point it
really didn’t matter to me because I was doing things with other guys
also. The last girl that he cheated on me with was one of my best
friends. This one hurt a lot more since I cared about both of these people
a lot. Since I was in college, my whole
life goals have begun to change and I was ready to be with someone who was
serious and wanted to be in a committed relationship. I wanted to be with
someone who supported my life goals and wanted to explore the world with
me. After the last time he cheated with
my best friend, we tried to work it out but the next relational change happened
which was low levels of love and trust. I began becoming interested in a
few of the college guys at school because they were actually working towards a
goal and wanting to further their education. Because he was cheating, I
didn’t trust him when he was spending time with other people especially
girls. Along with losing the trust, my love for him was diminishing
because I was in a constant worry of what he was doing and who he was
with. For me, it was hard to love someone who I didn’t trust. Along with relational changes, I was
experiencing individual changes.
According to Levinger’s Barrier Model, if
attraction and barriers are low but the alternatives are high, then I should
leave the relationship. I was definitely running out of reasons to
stay. I wasn’t really attracted to his attitude on life and defiantly
wasn’t attracted to his work ethic. I started to grow up and look at the
future things and reliability wasn’t one of those. One of the huge
barriers to leaving was the connection and that we were dating for three
years. For me, it was very hard to leave because of all the time and
money that was invested in that relationship. After looking at the
attractions and the barriers, I found that the alternatives were much
higher. My alternatives were finding a guy who was going to college to
better his education. Granted Jared did go to Tech College in high school
and had a great job, he wasn’t a great worker and showed no ambition.
Guys who were in college were obviously wanting to be there otherwise they
wouldn’t have been attending college. Another alternative that I took full
advantage of was to explore other places to live. After breaking up with
him, I applied to UW Stout and was super eager to go somewhere else where I didn’t
know anyone and wasn’t judged. I was
able to meet new people and new guys rather than being stuck to talking to guys
that only went to my high school. I could also find a guy who loved me
and didn’t feel the need to cheat or hurt me.
So this began the stages of dissolution. The first stages is personal which is where
one person isn’t happy. For our
relationship, I feel that with him cheating, that we both weren’t happy but I know
for sure that I wasn’t happy. The second
stage is dyadic which is where one person tells the other partner how they are
feeling. I chose to do this over a text
and I decided right away that I no longer wanted to be with him. It did take a few months for this to completely
happen since we did try to work things out a month later again but I decided
again that it wasn’t worth the fight. The
third stage is called social which is when you tell your friends and family for
support. I personally only told a few of
my close friends what was happening and I only told my family that we broke up
and didn’t say much more. I didn’t want
my family knowing that I was cheated on and I wanted to show that I was the
stronger person in the relationship to end it.
My friends knew exactly what happened.
I know that Jared told his friends that he ended the relationship and I just
left it because it wasn’t worth the fight. The fourth stage is grave dressing which is coming
up with a story on why we broke up and how to address it. My story was that we grew apart since I was
in college and I wanted something new in life.
I didn’t want anyone to know that he cheated on me so I kept that out of
the story. The fifth and final state is
resurrection which means to come into the world as a single individual. I didn’t do very well being single since I wasn’t
single since freshman year of high school so I entered a new relationship within
two months of breaking up with Jared.